I Ramble When i'm nervous. *Sorry*

Hi everyone, my mood today is a little blurr to tell you the truth. I spent the day at work and it was normal so nothing to report there. I came home and it was normal, again nothing to report there. Joanne told me that it looks like our summer holiday may be off, well actually more like a YES it's off..! I'm totally gutted by this news. urgh, my week seriously can't get any worse. i also feel..ODD, it dont make sense and i cant write it down, it would make even less sense, but here goes.. i dread going to sleep now, it means i have to read "New Moon" because im so used to reading before bed, "New Moon" has made me feel empty to be honest, i miss the love and passion the other book had. Then again no one is forcing me to read it and i doo feel like i want to, i read roughly 8 pages and put the book down cause i cant take anymore of it. Then i get another feeling of guilt, and i think why is this happening? i start to think things like "Has it all changed?" and i start hoping that no..because it never was meant to change NEVER. Then i realise "No, things haven't changed.." but i still feel the guilt. Theres this queasy feeling in m tummy all the time, along with dread, and hope all mixed together. See i told ya it makes no sense how im feeling. MAYBE i'm just an emotional wreck at the moment. I think maybe I've just realised something in the last couple of days, and its something which has taken a long time to settle in with me. :( i don't want to waste my time, but i have been for ages, years even. i need a change..i need something DRASTIC, but how can i suddenly stop all that i know, and where do i start looking for what i am searching for. :/ i dunno, this post is just jumble it makes no sense to anyone but me, and I'm sorry! I'll try again tomorrow. B the way watched "Mamma Mia" and its cheesy, and goofy, and weird but i sang along to nearly all the songs and it did make me laugh..so (Y) thumbs up!! "Dark Knight" & "City of God" tomorrow, yahoooo

I suck at blogging.
Annie;
jinos