:) Hi,
Its still not right, i can feel it, maybe I'm the only one, but its there. I'm not looking for things that aren't right, there just there for you to see.. I have this weird feeling that if it don't get better or improve then I'm screwed. Great i really fancy that! :| urrmm There isn't much to blog about..
-The love life - Well it's still there and you know...! :(
-The work life - Sylvia is working with me now, only 3 weeks till i go on holiday!
-The social life - I miss my friends, but feel like if i were to go to them, they would all get sick of hearing about my problems..at least I'm seeing Lil tomorrow and Sam in about 2 weeks!
-The fun life - I'm going on holiday soon, and this is weird but i haven't had alcohol for ages and fancy some of it back in my life! :|
not much else to say really!
*His sister was round the other day and she said I'm getting skinner and skinner, there's nothing for him to hold on to. It shouldn't have upset me or hurt me but i let it get to me, and it did hurt me, i really didn't know what to say to something like that, so i shrugged and walked out the room, really i wanted to run upstairs to the bathroom and have a cry..I'm not being emotional about it, but i just felt awkward in my on body. Calling someone "Skinny" is just as bad as calling someone "Fat"..you wouldn't go up to someone and say your getting fatter and fatter i don't know how he copes with you. You shouldn't care what other people say or think about you, but it really got to me and for the first time ever i really had no response to it, so i just walked out the room..hoping no one would notice how that hurt. I'm 21 years old going to be 22 soon, i weigh 8 stone or 50 kilos if you want it that way, I'm 5ft 6 nearly 5ft 7 and i don't know if I'm underweight for my age and height, but i know that everyone from my dad's side of the family are slim and i know I've got their genes, but i totally hate it when people comment on how "Skinny" i am. Yes i may seem like I'm confidant in my own body and that I'm loud and bubbly and like i say 2 fingers up at the people who don't like me because i don't care, but truth is, I'm a woman so i have body worries like all women do and I'm human so i do have feelings, I'd rather you say I'm "Slim" then I'm "skinny" or maybe how about not mention it at all. It can become an issue if too many different people start to notice it and mention it, you end up starting to worry yourself and that's when things become unhealthy.. talk about knock your confidence down..*
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
Morninggggg,
Today has started off OK, was rather awkward at first for slightly embarrassing reasons which i wont go into to, but the morning turnt OK quite quickly. I made breakfast for me, Monica and Danny and about half an hour later Danny left. I think I'm going to have a bath and then make some lunch for me and Monica as Sylvia has gone out for the day with her besties to go and take photos of a cemetery.. I'm still a little indecisive about my birthday present from Danny, it hasnt actually hit him about why i feel like this, and then i think im being stupid like if he hasn't actually figured it out, it's not that obvious and it must be just an "Ana" thing, but as i was explaining it to Sylvia yesterday she said I make a big drama out of nothing, but this time she gets my point and can actually see where im coming from with this...! URGH i dunno!
Hello All,
I have finally booked my lovely flight to Madeira for 10 days! :) I'm so excited, i wanted the full 2 weeks as in 14 days but my work is such a pain in the butt they wouldn't let me have those days. It seems like its going to be a lot of fun although, of course I'm a little nervous and scared, Danny reassures me I've got nothing to worry about, but you know i do wonder! I was also devastated after i brought the tickets, they cost me £800 :| i couldn't quite believe the price especially for only 10 days! :( But i did buy 3 tickets and i also booked 2 large bags to take with us, 20 kilos in each bag only! :( I more or less paid about £266 for each ticket! :| ah life, Danny's dad paid about £273 and then Danny who went to book right after us paid £300 he was not impressed. Especially as this morning, prices have right back down to £266 again. It must have been because lots of tickets were purchased in one go, it started to go up..should have just brought them all together..this better be all worth it! :D now i need to save up enough money to spend on clothes and to take with us. In other news me and Danny have set up a joint bank account with Halifax where we shall be putting some of our hard earned cash in each week, we're trying to save up for our future home! :) I'm really happy we did and are doing this, i think we both need this little independence away from our families..and saving up for our own place can only be a good thing! Also Today is a big step as i have Danny stying over for the first time, its only taken him 10 months, to decide this.. i regularly stay at his on the weekends but this is the first time he's stayed at mine, i do love it, just hope he's not doing to keep me happy as he said!! Grr!
Also he told me what my birthday present is going to be, I'm excited but a little sad about it, i will write another blog post about this.. some time real soon, yes i want the gift but.. URGH! I'll explain more next time! I'm going off to bed at 1:10am.. :)
24 days till i go here... MADEIRA!! ♥
The difference between men and boys.
A boy looks good with his shirt off
A man looks good because of the way he looks at you
A boy will smile during the good times
A man will laugh during the bad
A boy goes to work because he has to
A man works because he can
A boy buys a plasma screen television
A man accumulates a library
A boy will hug you in the kitchen
A man will hold your hand anywhere you're together
A boy knows how to load the washing machine
A man knows what doesn't go in the dryer
A boy can read the grocery list you have written
A man will shop it with you, put it away, and cook anything on it
A boy will talk to you about lousy day
A man will ask you about yours, and listen
A boy will read a to do list
A man knows what has to be done
A boy will buy you flowers
A man will plant them with you
A boy will tell you what you want to hear
A man will tell you what he has to say
A boy will share a thought
A man will share his dreams
A boy will tell you he feels good when he is with you
A man will tell you how he feels when he can't be at your side
A boy will share intimate moments with you
A man....will share his life
